It has occur ed to me that I know almost nothing. When I was a teenager, I felt empowered, strong, confident. I knew everything. As most young teenage women, I was on top of the world. Through much pain and hard self-reflection, I have discovered that I, in fact, know nothing. I have never been out of the country. I have never really been places without "adult" supervision. Even when Mike and I took our vacation this past January to Florida, Jerry's parents were there. I am at the fine line in my life that is separating my teenage angst and ignorance from true adulthood. I am maturing, and am trying to do it the "right way". Not to say that my mistakes will not harm me. That I have come to a complete understanding that I know nothing and a true appreciation for the wisdom I see in other people. Mike is one of the smartest people that I know. He is knowledge ninja. Though he may not always be so vocal about the things going on in his head, he is thinking constantly. He put himself though school the first time, and he is excited to go back for more education. He is calm. When I am freaking out, panicking, he is in control of himself. Now, he might not have always been that way, but he is today. Strong, confident, calm. Truly happy. He lives each day as if it might be his last. I, through self-reflection, have found my fear to be childish. Unfounded. Today, this morning, I feel more empowered, more in charge, and with more self-control than I have had in the past. Self-control is such an acquired taste :)
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bravo!
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