Godzilla Tova

There is a calm stream strolling inside my veins today. A gentleness that one would think a mother gorilla only would possess. There is a strange excitement that is being born with this feeling. One of, perhaps, control. Power. Self respect. I am a perfectly imperfect being. Intense. Too intense. What does that phrase mean? It is a sum of passion, drive, ambition, emotion. It is the feeling of caring for someone or something or some subject incredibly hard. The food for the feeling for the fire that drives me. The stretch in my muscles that touches on change, on a belief that all is for the good. For the decent and happy. Let not a dark thought caress the brain, let not the bleak feeling cater to your heart. Let, instead, the light of the world, the sun of the sky give hope to a needed situation. Be strong, even if things do not go your way, a belief that all is for the good.

Midnight Lollipops

I have already screwed up. Today is the third, not the second, and I have missed an entry. Can we just count weekends as “one blog day”? No, I don’t suppose we can. This morning Michael and I started playing on the Wii fit, a new promise we are making. We both would like to lose weight and tone up before the wedding. I am worried about the upcoming work week. It is rent week, and I have a ton of paperwork to do. I am learning to de-stress. I have to relax, and get this work done the right way. If I stress out about the whole thing, I will not do the work the right way, and that is not how I want to be looked at. I have to portray myself how I want to be seen. I do not want to be the high strung, overbearing person. Relax, Regal. Stop letting life kick you. Join forces with life and rejoice. Life has handed me many joys, sweet lollipops in the dark.

New Year’s Resolution

Forgiveness for me is a triple-sided petal. It is all tense, tragic, and lovely. It can be a difficult object to produce, but once in production ends up to be a beautiful item. Learning to forgive myself as well as others is a difficult thing.

This year, I am making it my resolution to write in my blog every day this year. I am committing to making myself a more patient person, a kinder person, and a better listener. I am going to practice thinking slower, speaking sweeter.

New Year’s Eve did not turn out as I expected it. Well, that is not entirely true. It turned out as I thought it would. Long story short, we ended up out with The Gays and had an amazing time! I love our friends! Not to say that the night did not start out well, it did, but in order to avoid a major disaster, we left the first situation and rang in the new year at the gay club. It was an amazing night!

Now to become a better person, one day at a time. I think I might start by thinking about my career, and focusing on bettering my personal relationships.