It is not the what-ifs, but the delightful romance of life.

“Stop letting your fear rule you.” This statement surprised me when my mom wrote me. I do live so much of my life in fear. My head is always filled with “what-ifs” and potential situations. My father’s advice was always, “plan for the worst but hope for the best”. After a few years of hardship and growth both in my personal life and my life with Michael, I have brainwashed myself into thinking that it is okay to fear life. I am afraid all of the time, full of the “what-ifs”. What if I don’t get people to lease these apartments? Will I get fired? Will I get demoted. I was blessed with a challenge for my first managing job. What if this legal stuff goes wrong? What if there are secrets? What if there are more lies? What if I get hurt? The reality is, there are going to be things that pop up. There is going to be pain, there will be problems. I am paying more attention now to our finances than I ever have, to the credit scores, and all that goes along with them. Michael and I have dreams together, to have a beautiful (but affordable) wedding, to have a tropical honeymoon, to purchase our first home and start a little Pearce family. Plan, though, patience. I am learning this painful but lifesaving lesson incredibly slowly. You must learn these qualities, Tiara, to teach them to your children. They shall be sons and daughters of a Pharmacist and Real Estate Broker. So this is starving, yes it’s insatiable, yes this love for the first time. You’d like to think that you were invincible once… yes… weren’t we all once before we felt love for the first time? Our brilliant dance……